Ciel. 26. Euro Girl. The neurotic secretary. She's a dancer,
a dreamer and a shadow boxer. Loves yoga, the 60s/70s and
everything vintage. Creative, loyal and sweet but weird.
Addicted to her Macbook, tea, movies and TV series.
She adores Kate Hudson and is obsessed with Jack Bauer.
Oh yeah and she likes to shop. A lot.

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I try to take pictures. I guess every girl goes through a
photography phase. You know, flowers, clouds... taking
pictures of your feet. I own a Nikon Coolpix S700 which is a
nice point & shoot camera. I shoot lomo with a Holga 120CFN;
my plastic fantastic toy camera. I recently bought a beautiful
Canon EOS 450D. At the moment i'm trying to learn the tricks.

FLICKR?


I love to read. I try to read as much as i can. I read about
20 books a year. It feels wonderful to get lost in a
great story and make new invisible friends. Like a true
bookworm i keep a list of all the books i've read.
My favourite books are: The Catcher in the Rye, The World
According to Garp and Hotel New Hampshire.

BOOKLIST?



It´s the shoe that counts
March 30, 2005 | 6:33 p.m. |

Wooah, bought a new pair of shoes. I all of a sudden remembered this store i had not checked out yet. And of course.. the latest store in the neighbourhood that is where you succeed. They are really cute. I also had to buy this awesome handy matching bag.

Okay and i admit it! I ALSO ordered a pair of golden Le Coq ballerina’s. So i spent a little money. I hope they arrive by the end of the week. I’m ready for summer.

Wisdom coming from a 50 year old male colleague; our mothers will never stop raising us.

Currahee
March 28, 2005 | 5:42 p.m. |


How much as i love to buy shoes, it really is a big task. My mum convinced me to go to this really fancy store where the shoes are actually really expensive. But i found a cute pair which were pretty cheap. Had to wait for 30 minutes before someone came helping me. Really ridiculous! They help one person at a time. When they go backstairs to search for your size, why the hell don’t they take another couple of boxes with them for another customer? The service sucks at fancy places. So i ended up waiting 30 minutes for nothing because they didn’t have my size anymore. Bastards. No instead they offer you water in a p-mate. Other than that, i guess you could say we had fun.

Today’s another Sunday. Didn’t really do much. Took a nice long shower. Watched the first two episodes of Band of Brothers again. Had some butter popcorn. I also ordered the book by Stephen E. Ambrose. The hardcover version. Hope it’ll arrive this week.

This week should be fine. Only four days left.

Updates: photography.

No words necessarily
March 25, 2005 | 5:24 p.m. |


Diaryland is finally letting me update. Phew.

Don’t you just love spring? It’s definitely my favourite season. The terraces are filled with people. We get rid of our winter jackets. The sun softly shining in your face. Your favourite song is playing in the background. Lovely…

My mum and i, we still can’t get along. I don’t know what it is. I guess it’s not just my mum, pretty much the whole family. Have you ever experienced that? People tell you to come and talk to them. You can always talk to them about everything. But then when you do, they never understand. They just don’t understand the person that you are.

My mum really talks a lot. When i come home from a long day at the office i just don’t want to hear all of the rubbish about our neighbours, or the couch her aunt is going to buy and blah blah. So at a certain point she always tells me i’m chagrined and we’re here again. She tells me i’m not a nice person towards her and other people. And i know it. And i have plenty of arguments. But the stuff that is really important to me, i feel as if i can’t share that with my family either. They aren’t interested. No real respond just a nod. Then my sister, well i don’t know, seems she doesn’t really wanna hang out with me either. Dunno why. Maybe it’s just a phase everybody goes through before moving out. I just wish i would feel more connected to my family right now. Because that is what’s most important in our lives right?

Thank you Judith for the lovely Easter sign!

We stand alone together
March 21, 2005 | 6:17 p.m. |


I finally got around watching Band of Brothers. I really have to dedicate my entry to this incredible series. The story is shown to us in ten different episodes. Every episode starts with the real men from Easy-company telling about their experiences. I felt as if the interviews added authenticity, verified what the series was showing. Each episode ends with a paragraph or two of the story's significance to the war effort or the lives of its participants. I love all the detailed information they are giving you.

It starts with the basic training in Toccoa, and continues through Normandy, The battle of the Bulge, and Operation Market Garden, among others, as well as the liberation of a concentration camp. Not only is it historically accurate, but it is also a compelling drama which pulls you in, in such a way that you actually care about each of these characters (though i have to say, due to the large number of speaking parts in this mini-series, one run through is not going to enable the audience to really get to know the characters).

My favourite character is Maj. Richard D. Winters (Damian Lewis). Respectable, knew what was best for his men. He had to mature along with his increasing command responsibilities, had to learn to turn over his responsibilities to others as he was promoted to battalion commander. It was clearly tough for him. I particularly remember this scene where Winters wants to take the charge into Foy. He wants to but can't, so he yells for Speirs. That was amazing. Great acting.

My second fave character probably would be 2nd Lt. C. Carwood Lipton (Donnie Wahlberg). Such a dependable guy. Great leader as well.

The cinematography was great, it was filmed so everything looked a little lighter than most films. It really had that “old look”. There was a lot of camera movement during the battle sequences that managed to make you feel like you were right in the middle of everything.

I remember when Winters got a ricochet in the leg, or when he came across the young German soldier in the field and shot him. I shivered during the episodes when they were trapped in the snow. My god, the characters you watched since episode one, got shot or blown up. They were about to lose all hope. And i cried when they found the concentration camp…

The extra disc contains a lot of information about how the film was cast, the "boot camp" that the actors went through and there are more interviews with surviving members of Easy Co. Folks.

The special effects, editing, cast and directing are brilliant, but what really leaves you in awe is the feeling, that you are watching true events and that it must have felt like this, when Easy Company and all the other soldiers entered the hell that is war.

Don´t panic
March 17, 2005 | 4:02 p.m. |


Oh shit. I got fried at the tanning studio. Well uhm not my entire body… But those two “bumps” that make you a woman.

Looks like you and i are going to see Coldplay! Via work i got tickets. Really excited about this. Could be the concert of the century.

Hey lady
March 15, 2005 | 3:33 p.m. |


Yesterday i spent two hours at the hairdresser. I let it dye and also had a hair-cut and a blow-dry. Then today i went to a tanning studio for the first time in my life. They let me use the Basic XL for 14 minutes.

I told the lady about the red spots in my face and she told me it might help. I just have to be careful because my skin is oversensitive. I probably have to go back there three/four times (preferably this week) before it starts showing. But hey it seems like a good way to spend my vacation.

(If your claustrophobic and all i wouldn’t recommend it.)

Updates: cam.

The world forgetting, by the world forgot
March 13, 2005 | 1:35 p.m. |


It’s been a while for me too, but this is an autoped.

If you could forget about past memories, would you really want to? And if so, would you be willing to sacrifice all the good ones, along with the bad ones? I watched Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind finally and loved it! It felt like watching a bizarre dream. It's beautiful, it's exceptional, it's funny, it's lovely, it's touching.

I never thought i’d say this, but Jim Carrey was absolutely wonderful in this movie. (The only movie i liked him in before was The Truman Show. Why does this guy make ridiculous movies if he can act like this?) It is easy to understand why Joel falls in love with Clementine. Kate Winslet is brilliant in this movie. She plays this fascinating woman who craves attention but needs intimacy.

I just really need to get this one thing off my chest: Kirsten Dunst is so annoying!

Sweet-talking-ladies man
March 10, 2005 | 6:39 p.m. |


Some things never change. My toe is infected again. I looked ridiculous at work wearing a skirt and only one boot. Really have to try to make an appointment at my doctor for tomorrow. Things have been like this for five years now... because it always comes back. I just have this idea that i might faint when someone touches my feet. Ughl i hate that. I’m also very scared that they’re gonna hurt me, cut off the whole nail or something like that (ooh my gawd *shivers*).

Have been flirting with a guy on an autoped. He was pretty, but i don’t really like guys who shave their heads. I like guys with big brown hair (on their head).

Mm sounds like a great rock song: Do you think you could give me a ride on your autoped?

Decide for yourself
March 08, 2005 | 6:18 p.m. |


I guess i’m feeling better. I decided not to go next week to the whole introducing the new subdivisions thing. I’m going to relax and do absolutely nothing next week. Well apart from watching some movies, sleep, eat, my appointment at the hairdresser and some shopping. Told my colleague about my decision and also about the fact that i went straight home at 3 p.m. after the course yesterday. She said, “You go girl, dig your heels in!” So i guess we’re cool again.

Gosh the way we have to considerably improve the contactability makes me sick. I’m always willing to help out, but what you get is that people start taking you for granted. It shouldn’t be that way.

I’ve had it with piggy as well. Last Friday we had a meeting together with curry, made some decisions, cut some knots. Then piggy was gonna inform the management and she told them something totally different! Can you believe that?! It’s probably because her work just isn’t finished and she’s trying to win some time. Can’t stand her underhand tricks.

Happy birthday to you and i hope you like the present.

You should´ve come over
March 07, 2005 | 7:39 p.m. |


After being sick for two weeks my colleague showed up again today. I was glad to see her again because it had been two busy weeks for me. Very chaotic because of the reorganisation. Today we also had to go to this course about the new documentary information system so i was relieved i didn’t had to go by myself. But then she told me to go by myself because of her back she couldn’t sit for 7 hours without taking a pause. And i’m not saying she’s not in any pain but this morning i got so pissed off about everything and everybody. So when the course ended at 3 p.m. instead of 5 p.m. i decided to go home instead of going back to work.

I’m so glad i’m going to have next week off you can’t imagine. I’m kinda wondering though, because next week the reorganisation will finally be official. Because of that there’s a two hour meeting, having a drink with your new colleagues etc. I told my colleagues i will come but now i’m just not so sure about that anymore. It would be nice, it’s a fresh start and all and i don’t really want to miss that. On the other hand.. what lunatic goes back to work when she’s having a week off?! Other people wouldn’t come back. I guess it would be better for me to fully take a week off and not think about work. I dunno…

Ah and of course Norton was blocking my pop-ups.

Updates: photography and i added a new link me button.

Purple rain
March 06, 2005 | 2:57 p.m. |


Updates: new design. Pop-ups do not work yet. But i'm not sure if that's to blame on the design or my computer.

Buckley and a bucket
March 05, 2005 | 5:17 p.m. |


I’m getting the feeling Lost could be my next obsession. This could possibly have something to do with Matthew Fox. That guy sure as hell looks so much better than when he was in Party of Five.

If i ever find myself with a bomb attached to my wrist, i have a friend who’s willing to chop of my hand. Isn’t that a comforting thought?

Congratulations to my friend Jen who bought a house! I know she’s sort of nervous about the whole thing but i’m sure she’ll make a great hostess. Today we actually went shopping and i guess you could say we spent quite a lot of money. I bought two tops, a skirt, a colourful Ganesha statue, a hippy necklace, Grace the Legacy Edition by Jeff Buckley and a book called The Parker Grey Show. Well spent money.

Jen did some die hard shopping as well. But Jen also bought a bucket. I think people were staring at us because they thought it was her handbag.

Melting
March 02, 2005 | 6:32 p.m. |


I am like every girl in the world. I have a few little secrets.

Updates: photography.